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I was born on a Summer night on August 10th, 1983 at 9:54 PM To a family of three, and four after I came into the world. I have one brother, Evan, I have my Mother, Susan, and my Father,Will. My mother had been married once before my father, but there was a motorcycle accident that happened right after they married, and the man was left paralyzed and clinically brain dead , putting a tragic halt to her marriage, and her mental health as well. I had dogs and other animals around my whole life. I had a parrot  named Max (After Max Cavalera of Sepultura & Soulfly fame). Now since as far back as I can recall I know I loved to draw and I had an ocean of an imagination. It was enough to create some of the most interesting drawings and such, but also enough to create fear that would make a grown adult tremble. I was told by my mother that when I was about 12 months or a little older, I would be put to bed in my cradle and after a short time of being alone I was crying for her to come back in my dark room because “Owl” was waiting outside my window.I always laughed about this later but I found some startling information pertaining to events similar and I will go back to that later.

I grew up with a rough time in family life. My brother was mentally ill with undiagnosed illnesses and it was tough on everybody. I found an interest in art especially the inspiration i gained from my interest in comic books and gargoyles. I drew pictures all the time of super heroes or whatever I had in my treasure chest of imagination at that time, and some of it was more like the cover of a Carcass album and caused quite a stir with the public school systems. One other thing I loved equally was music. It was always on for me. The first kind of music ic I really found a liking to was metal. Thrash metal was the stuff I found to be my call of the wild. I remember my brother wasn’t around and I listened to his Kill ‘Em All Tape, a Metallica classic. A Thrash Classic. I also liked Guns N’ Roses and not only because they were good, but I loved hearing Axl Rose say F*ck, Sh*t, C*nt, anything explicit I found was just great to me. The next band I found was a band that really put me on the path to the best music I could access, and I had to really come up with a good explanation for my moms as to why I needed their album that was known as “Reign In Blood” by a band called Slayer. It took some real convincing. Picture a fourth grade kid, Your Kid, and Your trying to be a good parent and not subject your kid to the violence that our society embraces unconsciously , and he gives you a record and the songs are called things such as “Alter of Sacrifice” “Necrophobic” “Criminally Insane” or “Raining Blood” and how are you to know its real importance as a reflection of whats going on and not an album that advocates torture, murder, satanic worship, among other sh*t? I don’t know, but I did convince her and It was through the powers that be and the need for speed. Speed metal! I got Sepultura’s “Beneath The Remains” and “Arise” and after “Chaos AD” they were my favorite band. I took up drum lessons after getting a kit my parents had bought me. It was a dark red Tama Rock star. I quickly started getting the hang of it, and I was practicing with a few of my best friends, Jon-Micheal Aiello & John D’apollo. Jon-Micheal was already amazing at guitar and could already play almost any Metallica song and D’Apollo was not far behind him. So I had to get good and I had to do it fast!

Into the darkness

Now I could tell you about all the girlfriends I had from 4th grade on, But it was in 7th grade when Sarah came into my life and it wasn’t until then that I had my first real “Love”. She was one of the most popular girls in school, and definitely one of the hottest. I remember I didn’t even know her from a hole in the wall but I was crazy about her. I mean crazy enough to write her a love letter that would probably make a girl who doesn’t think much of you think your a creep on top of it but nope, she was all about me after that.  I pressed my luck took my chances and BAM! there she was! She was in love with me as much as I was to her after not long, and thats when I got my first piece of ass other than the million and one other girls that I would go out with for a week, get dumped, or be the one to dump the other first, making out with only a cheap kiss or something that wasn’t much to really enjoy. Sarah was great. She would write me dirty letters and tell me everything I wanted to hear and more. I got my first taste of P*ssy, and she had a great way of showing me what feeling good really felt like, and it was f*cking sweet!

Musically my taste had grown from when I was in 2nd and 3rd grade,  Now I was Into Death Metal, Because even though my brother would KILL me if he found out I was borrowing his CD’s, I taped them on cassette so I could put em back fast. I had stuff like Napalm Death’s “Fear, Emptiness, Despair” , Carcass’ “Heartwork” , “Cause Of Death” from Obituary,Suffocation, Malevolent Creation, A real classic for me had been “Slaughter of the Soul” from At The Gates. That was a record Aaron from Converge had recommended when I asked him what I should buy after I told him what I listened to at the time. Aaron worked at the local record store, and He was also in a band called “Bane”  etc. But after seeing some of the hardcore shit, That was my shit! I started going to hardcore shows with my friend Jake Perry, Who lives out in L.A. today, and gotten himself a little recognition from “The Two Corey’s” reality TV show since he was Feldman’s assistant. Before that he was working for Pauly Shore. Don’t ask me I couldn’t tell you either! But it was Jake Perry who brought me to my first Overcast (now of Shadows Fall & Killswitch Engage Fame) Show, I was into alot of NYHC like Merauder, Skarhead, Madball, Cro-Mags,  Earth Crisis, Converge, V.O.D., Strife, back when  Hatebreed was the opening band. I remember This band who was always opening at matinees called Reasonable Force and they gave us their demo and I thought it was a little corny but still it was pretty good, and the singer had a sense of humor like no one else, I remember they had a song called “Droppin’ Lemurs” It was fuckin great. Well one day I got a call since they had my number incase they needed artwork I was trying to get any band to utilize me. But then the best thing happened. They asked me to see if I could play their songs on the drums and try out for the band. I was like ok yea, come down and we’ll Jam out. The next day Al, The humor and the voice of the band, called me and said I was in the band, and I was so psyched it was one of the best moments of my life.

Me and Sarah were kind of on the outs, we had gone out for a year and a half and after all the great P*ssy I lost my virginity to, and even had a pregnancy scare, It was all comin’ to an end and I wasn’t prepared for the feeling of how it felt to have my heart rippped into twenty million pieces and still keep my shit together at that age, 13 to be exact. I also was not prepared to have her come to a band practice and start a nice romance with Al, The singer of my band. The only thing I could do is deal with it because if I quit the band, then I had absolutely Nothing, but if I just dealt with watching them be together whenever we played a show? Well I guess I had to watch and find a way to escape the agonizing sight of them being together, and Since I was such a fan of Blood 4 Blood, Drinking it all away worked pretty damn good. And Eastcide and their crew (especially the girls) loved to get the young in drunk. It was not bad because even though Sarah wasnt giving me that good stuff, There were so many other girls I would have to bang and if I wasnt into them after I just said “Take A Hike!”  Haha.  I guess I was kind of a dick. Oh well, better than being a little bitch! And who doesn’t wanna be a rockstar (that’s how It looked) at 15 years old?

After a while of having the Original RF lineup, which was (Al) “Killa 187″ – Vocals, “Jim-bone” – Guitar, “SZA” Shane – Bass, and drums -me aka “Däs FInnz” (They had this ridiculous idea Finnegan was a German name.) Now let me backup and say that All the other guys in the band were a lot older than I was. I was 15. They were 20 and up, so my opinion wasn’t always considered, otherwise I think we would have been The next Hatebreed but  better, (yea that’s right I said BETTER!) A Guy named Ryan X, Who’s last name, Bacigalupo, was just annoying  to spell, so it was just “X.” that was created when Ryan was in a band from Brockton, MA  called “Punch The Klown” and they were puting out a split 7″ with Grudgeholder, and The singer of PTK, Chris, couldn’t figure out his last name, got annoyed, and stamped him as “Ryan X” I was really into Punch the Klown who had a different sound and I was very into their material but they never got to release a full length but more or less demos on top of demos. We were out somewhere and Al made some remarks about Rick Ta Life of 25 Ta Life, Saying the guy was a “loser” and some stuff about making our music more radio based but still good so we could actually make $, but they didn’t take too fond of those words. And the band chose to Throw Al out of the band and I can tell you the only reason I agreed was because I didn’t like the fact that he had my X-girlfriend. I totally agreed with him about Rick, I thought the guy was kind of a freak show. A train wreck that would have been better off telling the world he was on drugs then saying he was straight-edge, but hey, they got us a few gigs and a song on the “A Call for Unity III” Comp. But after shane wanted to sing, we fired him, and then this nice guy John got fired, Then We wound up with this Big Bald-headed, Mean as F*ck looking Pessimistic Guy named “Gay Kevin.” I was really intimidated by this guy. He was just mean as hell looking, and he had a deep, raspy voice that it sounded like he was yelling at you when he was just talking normal. He was Gay too, but he was “Only attracted to big, fat, black guys.” I was amused by that nonetheless, and I don’t have anything  against sexual preferences as long as I don’t see his gayness around me, We’re cool. Haha but You know Kevin was not as mean as he looked if he liked you. He was very nice actually, and you just had to understand that he yells but that’s just how he talks. But He had a great singing voice for a band that sounds like Sheer Terror mixed with old Hatebreed and Blood for Blood. Now I love Ryan X like a brother, but he is kind of an arrogant motherfucker but thats just who he is, an asshole. But if you really understood him he wasn’t really an asshole he just was brutally a=honest but thought he was always right, but hey who’s to say he isn’t? Anyway, Kevin was soon a close friend and I think he was a very good person, and I still talk to him sometimes today, but unfortunately he went off into the drug world and got himself involved with Cocaine and it was bad and I lost touch with him for a while, But last I checked he was doing well, I hope I’m right. The band broke up after some time after I got involved with Reasonable Force’s buddy band All Else Fails Also, from the Worcester scene. They had a CD out called “From the Ground Up” Produced by Matt Henderson of Madball.  The singer Steve, He was like an older brother to me through those years. So I was psyched when I joined and Al got a spot as second guitar and we had still somehow manged to stay friends and I accepted the terms of having lost Sarah, and I was friends with her by then too, and enough time went by and enough girls had slept with me to completely forget about her.  But All Else Fails couldn’t afford the practice space and everyone was going in separate directions and we never  went any further .

I was extremely defiant when adolescence came and Adult life was on its way. I was well into my party days by then, Fighting, Drinking, Drugs, LSD, you name it! If it f*cked me up  I was all about it.  My other friend, D’appollo was my partner in crime ‘n’ Slime all through out the years of non stop running with the devil and making sure we were beyond the rails of any “Crazy Train”. We were more like a Megadeth approach you could say if “Druggin’ is my Business and Business is Good…..” It was a mixture of shenanigans, drug escapades, and a serious game of risk, played with stuff like LSD, Weed, Alcohol, Ketamine, Amphetamines, Valiums, Klonopins, Ativan, Dexadrine, Percocet, Vicodin, Oxycontin, Cocaine, Mushrooms, Ecstasy, Salvia, Cough Medicine, Heroin, Mescaline, freebase, Morphine, Hydromorphone, Methadone, Buprenorphine, Ambien, and the list just went on and on and on….. It wasn’t about trying be cool or “bad” we were just downright out of our fucking minds. and out of fucking control. John had overdosed on a mixture of different things and was in coma at one point and I was really threatened with the reality that my best friend might be gone, but luckily he woke up, and luckily he wasn’t brain damaged. It was a scary thing to go through, but it wasnt a surprise to me as something out of the ordinary because when you live a life so close to the edge of no turning back, these kinds of things can and would happen.  I never stopped listening to music even if playing it was out of the question. I can remember a band that I really loved and when you took  LSD they were killer! That was Candiria, they had a crazy drummer, the best I have ever heard, and seeing em live was incredible. I also loved to listen to Merauder and the whole Master Killer Album. I heard Jorge on Candiria’s Year One and that was The Ill Shit. Skarhead and Subzero were also personal favorites, I was also big into Biohazard, Pantera, and Still a die hard Sepultura fan.

So I ended up getting kicked out of High School. For What? for all the fights, for being on drugs, all the teachers I told off, All the authority that never had anything near an opportunity to control me. And you know what? It doesnt mean shit anyway because if you really look into it, College is like a big pile of debt someone pawns off on to you to pay, and I mean if you really wanna get ahead and excel in whatever it is you do, all you really need to do is do research on your own time, do what all the other kids don’t do, and be your own Leader, and the most important rule: Dont give a Flying F*ck about being accepted or rejected, thats how you truly win at life, fight as if your already dead, and once you see you have nothing to lose you can start playing the game of life and learn to take risks!

The Band drama stopped when I was about 18, the music playing did too. But I had also very much liked good hip hop and that was another world I visited quite Frequently. Gravediggaz and Wu-tang Clan were my favorite groups, I had alot of respect for what Mobb Deep had back then, Still do today. I absolutely loved The Sunz of Man Project, Prodigal Sunn, 60 Second Assassin, and my  two favs, Hell Razah & Killah Priest. and Killarmy was ok, even though Killa Sin is one of the Illest emcees, He outrhymed the other guys by a long shot, I listened to the Outsidaz, Eminem was respected, he did a whole new angle to the game that nobody else brought to the table. Twista was phenomenal before he got famous.  I started writing rhymes early high school as well and recorded with some kids around the way, I had a solo song and I cannot find it to this day, but anyway I kept that up for a while and then after having been friends even after all that happened between myself, and Al, my singer for RF, We became best of friends and I forgive him for all that B.S. and we formed a little duo called ClosedCaskets. That was just 4 fun and it got me going on a solo mission because of the enthusiasm I had was taking the f*ck off! I called my hip hop sh*t “Afterlife” to represent the way I live now to the way I lived back then.  I wrote a solo joint in 2007 called Frostbite, and from there on I wrote more and more songs. I had about 12 songs all together with CC before it kinda just stopped. I kept doing solo songs with ClosedCaskets still there for fun.  I had a really respectable Emcee and a good friend of mine , James Allen Hogge, known to me as Hogge, or Jim. But as me and Al had our thing, Jim and our other boy Leverone, Or Mike, had their own little duo and it was good, and mine was good, but I felt that If It was Me and Jim on the tracks, it would no doubt be fire!!!

I got a GED and I did a semester of community college but that went nowhere, I went back to working construction, I don’t do that anymore, because I hate doing it and I hate working for the asshole making all the majority of $$ that my hard work produced, So F*ck that! But lets see, I won a comic book drawing contest when I was 8, I had my artwork put in Circus Magazine at 11, and There’s just gotta be a reason why I survived 2 bad car accidents, 3 heroin overdoses that had me in the state so close to no coming back that every EMT on the scene was startled to see me alive after such a close call , I fell off a roof 20 feet high another time when I was at work, with only a scratch to show for it. So you really have to question what’s really all this about because if all of this happened coincidentally, then I have DNA from against all odds that keeps me alive.

I got clean on 6/6/06 and it was crazy hard to stay that way, because although I had a few slips, and a girlfriend who got pregnant while I was still in a program. I managed to keep out of trouble and off the street and off drugs. Now that girl was an old girlfriend from after Sarah, and I thought she was going to be the next big part of my life and I thought I was going to be a father because she was now pregnant but it was only a month later, we had a small argument and I said fine if you wanna be a bitch “Go Fuck Yourself.” I was adjusting to such a new life that it wasn’t so easy to keep my cool and bite my tongue when I wanted to say what I really felt. But she didn’t accept that, and she had a notion that if you’re not perfect, you’re nothing, and after that she said she never wanted to see me again and she did that because I said “Fuck Off”? I highly doubt it. I tried to cool things off I was going to be a father and I was going to be responsible, but when she accused me of giving her Chlamydia I was proven wrong about where the pregnancy had come from, And I DID use protection and It was very odd to begin with. But I knew she didnt get that from me and I went to the Hospital immediately and they tested me and It was just as I suspected it would be: Negative, Negative, and more NEGATIVE! so I had the results given to me after I signed for its release, and I sent them to her on Valentine’s Day 2007, inside a nice card. She said she never wanted me to pay child support and she said she didnt want me to meet the child EVER! so She went and took out a restraining order on me, and it was odd since I lived in Boston and she lived in Bellingham. And a diss in a song is not a threat. its a diss, a disgust, a disapproval, and its just made of nicely composed Hip hop that me and Al had started called ClosedCaskets. It was a joke. The judge, however, didnt like my opinion of the whole situation, so it was granted and I went back to Boston and I had no intention ofever speaking with her again, and after her former friend told me she was known as a town slut, I knew it wasnt my kid, and Therewas no more getting prepared to being a father, so I said Fuck it I’m  gonna be an emcee

  I kept solo and after a while when Jim was no longer  working with Mike and       finally  I had convinced my main man to do shit  it was on! Jimmy camearound and we started to lace tracks like I had planned, and every track was fire. The chemistry was like a burning wildfire, and it was just crazy because even though we only did 4 tracks that were officially released for people to hear, we have more shit I will put out on better beats later, and freestyles from drunken nights. The four songs we did were the best four songs I ever remember about hip hop. and it wasn’t about being better than this cat or that cat, we just loved doin it and it was FUN!!!! It was just Incredibly painful in the last sessions because I could clearly see Jimmy was distressed, I could sense he had that mental pain that life can put into a person and he told me exactly how bad his pill habit had taken control. And like the former suicidal drugged and bugged out, jaded shell I used to live in, I knew his condition had turned from monkey to Gorilla. and he wanted out I could read him clearly, and even after all the stories or advice, I knew the golden rule on the law of change, especially when it concerns a serious opiate dependence,You get through to anyone. You learn the hard way or you end up dead. He didnt have his will to live and that absolutely killed me to watch so we lost touch the last 2 months he was around, but I did keep in contact on the phone, and I could tell he wanted to do the music, but he just wasnt mentally fit to live his everyday life, never mind focus on music, and he was a talent so unique, He could have gone anywhere, and he would have wrecked other emcees in other places cuz that’s how good he was and that’s just what he loved to do, but he wasn’t feeling anything close to being the person he was.But soon would bring about the end. The end of Pain, the suffering, The self disapproval. The one who always made everyone laugh at anything he said. you burst into laughter from his everyday personality, but even though you were lost in his comedy antics, I never once saw him laughing about it. He was truely in Pain, He just needed  that luck of god to get by such a dangerous path, and thats how I made myself think it would work, Death was not a place he would escape, He most likely embraced it and returned to the heavens, peacefully. At least that was his last moment alive, being free from his missery and I guess I am better knowing he died in a most peaceful state, it still brings me to tears when I think about him, and every time I play our demo I feel his presence  fill a million memories of the time he spent doing what he loved with our friendship and love for doing Hip Hop and it was an organic expression that we unleashed in every song

  In 2008 I met my next girl, Brandi.  Brandi was hotter than any of the girls I had ever had, or at least very close to that and she was a sweetheart, and she meant to do good with all she did,  But she was a mess after a while and it was a hard relationship because I was getting away from the drugs but she was really just getting started.,I really cared alot about her and there was something there that wasnt in any other girl. There seemed to be a sense of loyalty and commitment. She never gave up on me, and I never gave up on her, we may have had some really different views about certain things in life, but we always stuck by each other, and I felt good to have someone again, but drugs would destroy her commitment to me and she would soon get pulled into the world of chemical dependance

             But back before the unfortunate time of terrible loss and personal tragedy  had  come crashing down on reality and I know that at the time me and Jim were doing music, I was pretty much done with the drug lifestyle. I had run myself into a rut so many times I was just naturally tired of all the bullshit and the scumbags you have to deal with so It was really tough seeing him go down that path, I would warn him and shit, I told him I’m more than lucky to even be living, and I knew he acknowledged my concern and my care for his well being, I could feel that he did, but I could also feel the other side of  how he felt and its a painful feeling I can’t  get upset with him, nor put the blame on anybody not even himself, Because I think back to my brother asking me how could’ve ever done the drugs I did like what was so bad that you did shit so addictive it was more like liquid suicide, I remember telling him “When you get to a point in your life that gives you a feeling of self hatred so intense,  you really just function as a life you’re  barely living  with nothing to look forward to and having memories that torture your head with pain & suffering  to the point that if something can change it even for a few hours, you don’t really have much of a choice.” That was the mentality I had back then. And I think that was the mentality Jim had in the end. I could feel it. He would never come out and say it  but I knew, It was there, and I was feeling for him. I just wanted to make it better for him. After all, That was my dog, My brother, my partner in crime on some hip hop shit. I had no choice but to pray for him to pull himself out of that terrible hole and through it all we kind of lost touch for a few months but kept making an effort to try and keep in touch and get through to him and I just remember it took a toll on me mentally. , it fucking has you, and soon I would see her walk into a dark world away from mine.  But the first loss wasn’tfrom her self abuse. It came from  the other direction from the last  person that I needed to lose so unfairly..

I got the phone call on January 31st, around 8:00 pm from Al, my closest of inner circle friends, That Jim had passed away just not too long before his call. I was just speechless . I r emember I was at my studio apartment in Quincy, MA and Brandi asked me what was wrong and I was just silent, I went out back on my porch and smoked a cigarette, “Jims Gone….” thats all I could say and she knew and she was very sympathetic but   I just remember a week later after it all had settled and I absorbed it all, and I was drawing at my desk just listening to our 4 songs and it just hit me like a hurricane of emotion when I could hear him on his verse I just lost it. I cried my fuckin eyes out! Alone, In my house just fuckin bugged out and so sad at such a loss, I just wanted him to be in the room with me, complaining about my mic not bein loud enough, anything but where he was, but thats something that we will never be able to change and Life has no other means but to go on… I couldnt hear a word she was saying. The room around me just started spinning like my thoughts racing in circles and going faster and faster. I was emotionless. I couldnt feel ANYTHING, It was real difficult going down there but I did and It was so unbearable holding his sister Leann and she was just balling into my shoulders, I dont know the words to describe it but it was so cold and so devastating it was in every possible way and more harmful to me than anything else, had John not passed away in  the prime of our evil covenant of ritual suicide wishes. But what made this hard was that my head was thinking clear and I could grasp and deal with the reality that stung more so  than the way I could have just ran if I was still trying to avoid reality,but this just twisted the knife and saying goodbye  was so painful.It was just fucking terrible, and even to this day I swear If I could give my life to give him his back I would, you can bet your life on it I would in a heartbeat….

I just remember a week later after it all had settled and I absorbed it all, and I was drawing at my desk just listening to our 4 songs and it just hit me like a hurricane of emotion when I could hear him on his verse I just lost it. I cried my fuckin eyes out! Alone, In my house just fuckin bugged out and so sad at such a loss, I just wanted him to be in the room with me, complaining about my mic not bein loud enough, anything but where he was, but thats something that we will never be able to change and Life has no other means but to go on…

    After his passing,   I was spending much of my time alone in isolation from everything and at times I would have to hurt more with my then, girlfriend, Brandi.As she was no longer concerned about me or our bond I thought could never break but as I watched her life unfold she wasn’t moving forward and I was letting her bring me down  more and I don’t know why I let myself watch  it happen but I did. I tried to make her life nice and I thought I had that power but she was going down that same path as Jim and  when addiction has you  , You cant even put your hand out to help , its not gonna matter. You just etiher cheat the grym reaper or join him. and I couldn’t believe it took her down for the long dark hell of the worst path a person finds, and Brandi meant to do  good with all she thought she still was in control of, but that was absolutely not the case that she  could hide and pretend she wasnt doing worse by the day,  But she was such amess and  and it was a not even possible to keep up a  relationship because I was getting away from the drugs but she was really just getting started.,I really cared alot about her and there was something there that wasnt in any other girl. There seemed to be a sense of loyalty and commitment. She never gave up on me, and I never gave up on her, we may have had some really different views about certain things in life, but we always stuck by each other, and I felt good to have someone like Brandi, But it felt worse to lose her to the next loved one in my life  drugs would destroy in such a brutal and cold sttrategy  It was af If  death was my arch rival but instead of taking me out he was a highly skilled assassin in a killing field that whenever I felt the pain oof losing subside, he would take the closest ones as fish in a barrel and just pull the trigger to the next one you have like family and show you a point blank execution with the most destructive weaponry and hire any lowlife piece of shit scumbag kid to lure her into more of the cold blooded murder but you never see the junkie glorifying waste of life go out, You lose all the good ones, and you have to sit around while these no good scum roam the streets and ask you for money and i just want to drop the mutherfucker and waste him for his own good. And when I had to walk in a suboxone clinic and hear kids talking about how awsome and important they seem to feel for sharing how much of a low life fucking shitbag he and his pregnant wife are for the all time lowest of low agenda they live by, it makes you just wanna  use your own money and buy a few .44 magnum gats fully loaded and paint the whole fucking place with a bloodbath and just deliver each one of them a goodnight slug to the dome and its done, I would rather go out too than see this after the pain I faced from the last time it froze my veins and turned my heart to ice with all the shit i seen happen to good people, that all had never deserved it half as much as the zombies around that atmsphere

Brandi would no longer need any reason for a  commitment to me and she would soon get pulled into the world of chemical dependance and I miss seeing her and I hope the best for her, but at the same time I really hate her for the way she walked out of my life and still to this day she hasnt so much as called and I have that feeling she is gone and this is what i expected. I have no idea where she is, but my grandfather had just passed away so I was hit with one more loss to accustom myself to and the pain that it took and being by his side I saw the life was slipping away. On March 24th, 2011, Sadly he passed away at an incredible age o f 94 .

But thats when a key person came into my life and it was the greatest thing for me at the time.I was talking to Jorge of Merauder on fb and I showed him the songs me n jim had n he really like it all so I said yo you wanna do a song for a track on his memorial CD Im tryin to do? he was like alright yo why dont we do some shit of our own. He was a voice I listened to from when I was a young kid and I always respected his music and his talent so it was pretty cool to see this happen and he turned out one of the the greatest friends I got  in my life today, a real motherfucker! A true friend! A great soul and a giving friend! We chilled and I got up with the other guys he was down with and there was a movement being put together, a bunch of other real motherfuckers and thats where I came into Los Babas Familia. I don’t speak to Brandi no more and as for fine women? They come and they go my friend, thats about it! but real family? even if it ain’t blood, you can still have a brother. like jorge, Thats a brother to me. Its real recognize real! And all the other Babas were down to earth MF’s too! This is the story of my life summed up in very short otherwise I’d be writing for days, but I have love for the peeps in my life today, all my Babas 22 you know who you are. And I have Love 4 Mother Earth, My true Goddess ,Yemayá, My True Essence. My Blue & White. for all My 22′s across da world Somos Pocos Pero Locos. Aché, Adam

MP3 Songs from the hip hop with jim and my solo track as Afterlife ” H. Dreamz”

Boston Brownstone Ft. JAH    natural born sinnerz   01 Heroin Dreamz

                                                 

Da best Friend I could ask 4!!!